When Life Clouds Your Path to Sunnier Days

I started writing this post about a month ago about exciting news in the MS world. But life (or should I say illness) got in the way.

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When physical pain knocks you off your keister everything else takes a back seat. 

The culprit in my little story is SIBO or small intestinal bacterial overgrowth. In basic terms, SIBO occurs when too many bacteria end up in the wrong place, namely the small intestine. SIBO commonly occurs when surgery or disease slows the passage of food and waste products in the digestive tract, creating a breeding ground for bacteria. It can often be the result of structural problems from several diseases.

There's a long list of possible causes that include low stomach acid, dysfunctional immune system (hmm), food poisoning, dysfunction of intestinal nerves, stress, and many others.

I had SIBO a few years ago and both times the pain was barely tolerable. It feels as if something is squeezing your gut while jagged edges stab at you. You want to scream in agony and pray for it to end.

Symptoms can include diarrhea, constipation, bloating, nausea, malnutrition, an uncomfortable feeling of fullness after eating, and unintentional weight loss.

This time I stupidly lived with the pain for months, thinking the cause was slow motility.  I figured it was one more issue I'd have to learn to live with.

But my gastroenterologist diagnosed SIBO, prescribed antibiotics (Xifaxin), and even though I'm on the fence on the benefits of probiotics I purchased some from my pharmacy.

So now I'm back to square one by following the Low FODMAP Diet as part of a comprehensive approach to getting rid of the bad bacteria.

By the way, according to the Cleveland Clinic, up to 80% of people with IBS (irritable bowel syndrome) have SIBO. And according to a study by the Canadian Society of Intestinal Research of the 6,132 individuals tested who have MS 28% of them also had IBS.

I'd say that's significant.

Bowel dysfunction is very common in people living with MS so having IBS was not a shocker, just another unwelcome guest.

Not surprisingly I had to resurrect my 35-year-old cane from the closet. The last two years of pandemic isolation, getting COVID, MS flares, looking for alternate housing, and boatloads of stress have taken their toll on my MS. Balance became an issue. Walking indoors in our small townhouse isn't a problem, but I rely on my cane when I take walks without my loving husband holding my hand.

So there it is, my explanation on why I haven't posted in a while. Now, onto the big news that I'm so thrilled about!!! Here's what I wrote in early February.

Drumroll, please!

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By now almost everyone in the multiple sclerosis community has heard of the recent findings that the Epstein-Barr virus (EBV) may be the leading cause of MS! To say this is exciting news is an understatement.

For years we heard of a possible cause and effect relationship between EBV and MS but, like other theories, nothing came of it.

This time it's different. This time the study demonstrates the strongest evidence yet.

The study by Dr. Alberto Ascherio, professor of epidemiology and nutrition at Harvard Chan School who is senior author of the study, suggests that most MS cases could be prevented by stopping EBV, so it follows that targeting EBV could possibly lead to finding ways to cure MS.

The breadth of this study was larger than ever before (which is what you want in any study.) Based on the analysis of serum samples taken biennially by the military of 10 million young adults on active duty, it identified 955 of them were diagnosed with MS while in service.

The risk of MS increased 32 fold after infection with EBV (yet not after infection from other viruses.) That's quite significant.

To read an explanation (in easy-to-understand language) on these findings please click here for Science Daily. To read the findings in full click here for Science, January 13, 2022.

I also suggest listening to Dr. Ascherio, author of the study, as he shares his findings with Dr. Barry Singer, Director of the MS Center for Innovations in Care at Missouri Baptist Medical Center,  on his podcast at MS Living Well. Click here to listen in.

If you're skeptical after hearing about EBV and MS because you were never diagnosed with EBV, think again:

An estimated 90% - 95% of adults catch EBV (also called herpesvirus) which is one of the most common viruses. EBV can cause infectious mononucleosis (mono) and most people won't experience any symptoms.

Did you just have an "aha" moment? I did after hearing about mono since I had it as a child. 

When I heard the news about EBV I was somehow reminded of the opening sequence of Mad Men where a man slowly free falls toward the ground. (I know it's a stretch but I can't explain our thought processes.) Now stay with me here.

The free fall reminds me of the elusive quest to find a cure for our disease. Down, down, down we go.

It begins with a diagnosis and the free fall of learning comes with living with this strange disease.

I think that's a fair (perhaps odd) comparison.

Over the years I've often felt as if I was living in a metaphorical free fall.

How many "cures" did I hear about? How many times was I urged to remove my mercury dental fillings? Or try bee venom therapy? Or use certain supplements?  Or try an expensive, controversial cure that the medical community never accepted but allegedly helped some patients (and splintered some in the MS community)?

Countless.

Let's hope these findings will ultimately lead to a cure. Can you imagine that?

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END NOTE: With all the turmoil happening around the world and the lives lost to Covid and other horrific events, I'm deeply grateful for the blessings I have in my life. I want to make that clear.

My story might sound trivial compared to those who've suffered great loss over the last few years. I'm deeply sorry for whatever you're going through.

There will be others who don't understand invisible illness and will hear my story as one long complaint. I hope someday you'll come to understand and believe me, along with thousands of others worldwide who live in the invisible illness community and struggle with pain and illness every day that the naked eye can't see.

We tell our stories to give others hope, empowerment, and inspiration. I hope by breaking myself open in this post I've helped even one person. 

The Silver Lining of Being Sick and Tired

I wasn't a diehard fan of the series "Mad Men" but the opening sequence haunts me. I have flashbacks of that black silhouetted man seeing the world crash around him, then similar to Hitchcock's "Vertigo" he falls slowly to the ground.

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For devotees of "Mad Men" the interpretation is easy, yet the iconic image can be interpreted in different ways and for different reasons. Here's why the image is haunting me:

ONE: When your body ignores your inner cries to stop misbehaving that desperate man is a parable for life. Down, down, down we fall.

I've received four diagnoses in the past year, all having to do with my digestive system. Now I must re-learn how to eat or my gastrointestinal tract will seek revenge in painful and odious ways.

For now traveling is difficult since you need to be near a clean bathroom. Your "normal" life is on hold as you spend time visiting doctors and testing the waters to find a new normal.

In the meantime people get tired of hearing about your recent illness(es). I don't blame them. Who wants to hear adult potty talk? I'm as tired of it as they are.

For thirty-one years my journey has been about learning from adversity, tolerating new normals and dealing with disappointments. I've been a willing student to learn all I can, but now I'm back to square one. Down, down, down I fall.

Then one day a dear friend told me something that empowered me. She said that someday I'll be able to look back and realize these diagnoses were teaching me powerful lessons. Adopting a smarter eating plan will help me live a happier life because I'll feel healthier and more energized.

Talk about a silver lining.

I believe in silver linings and I have faith in the wisdom of my friend. Staying strong and having a positive attitude will serve me well one more time.

I want to rejoin life and take part in all its glory. I miss the old me. So I'm trying as hard as I can to find my way back. In the meantime I hope you'll stick by me.

TWO: While watching what's taking place in Washington I see the "Mad Men" image representing the downfall of America. Lies, deceit, greed, narcissism, cover-ups, intolerance, hatred and corruption results in an America I hardly know. We are trapped with a man and others in power who are trying to make "America Great Again" by making it unrecognizable.

Citizens are being pitted against each other as we defend our opinions about a man with no values. Down, down, down we fall.

What's kicking the image back to a safe place is the public outcry from millions of citizens who believe our country is worth the fight. The marches have been exquisite. Local groups have banded together. Ordinary citizens are running for office to rid of the old guard. We are staying stronger together as we continue to resist becoming something we're not.

All of this is in the name of truth, justice and the principles of the Declaration of Independence that all men are created equal.

WE THE PEOPLE, the Constitution says. That certainly is a silver lining.

 

END NOTE: If you are interested in what I'm reading about digestive issues, here's what's currently on my nightstand (all available on Amazon):

 

 

 

 

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